Battle Fleet

   I am Sydeny. I'm a very self centered bird. My owner is a man named Witchwall. Lately I have been thinking he has been mad at me. So I tried to run away from the ship. But then I realized being alone in the big ocean would be scary. So I decided to come back but not for my master. I wanted to hide until I get off this crazy boat. I like the fact that I can fly away to far places but the loneliness of it all makes me depressed and uneasy. Being alone is one the hardest things to handle.

 I didn't have many friends on that boat anyway just two women and my master. Those are the people that sort of care about me. Other than that everyone else probably thought I was a waste of space or time. I still do like some of the things back on the ship like getting fed or learning new words to say that people taught me. But friends grow apart and no one knows when. I made that decision myself. That day when my master found me I thought I was going to die. Who knew what they would do to me? I was scared.

    I'm a parrot who stumbled upon this crew. I like to be groomed and fed. I will say anything that you want me to say. I like to fly around and stay active outside. I like to be around people. It makes me feel special but I could become a lone wolf if I ever needed to. I'm very sensitive which could be a downside in a certain situation. When I said I could be a lone wolf which I can be but that doesn't mean I like it. I get afwully lonely which makes me go insane sometimes. If I ever wanted to leave this boat again I would think first. I don't want to keep flying with nothing around me but sea. I will just wait until I get closer to land.

   I don't think I could stay long either because this boat was made for sea battles. I'm not taking the chance of getting killed. Maybe leaving now is a good idea. It makes sense just in case I get killed or get someone killed. I do not want blood on my hands. I don't think this is a great place to live anyway. People would disagree saying " A ship is a great place for a bird to live." I disagree with that statement. Those people probably never have been on a ship. It is absolutely disgusting. It reeks of raw sewage and rotten mangos.

  I want to follow my heart but I do not know what the right decision is. Should stay or should I go that question has been running through my head. I want to stay but there will be trouble. But if I leave I would not know how to live with myself. I will end up spending the rest of my days on top of this ship. I don't think I want to live that life either.